Yesterday was Papaw’s 25th deathday. Tried to get some flowers, but couldn’t find any decent ones around Proctorville. Guess I’ll get some & decorate when I get home (me & the Murph are in Cols, now).
Today’s Jeremy & Brittany’s anniversary. Happy happy! I love their little family… :o)
That’s all I’ve got for now.
Tuesday was my last day of school, still trying to figure out how to relax…
reading all of this material is like dragging myself through sludge.
so sloooow. seems neverending. and wearing me out.
i need another week.
have really enjoyed having todd here. been veryvery down lately, & he ALWAYS makes me laugh.
haven’t gotten much studying done, but i really don’t care about school anymore…so i guess it’s okay. i fully intend on getting a D on the final, if not a plain F. just don’t have any energy, drive, or focus - so it’s impossible to get anything accomplished….
sorry to be such a downer all the time. i know it gets old….
just canceled my pt for today. starting to panic about this exam on tuesday. so much calculating involved in renal physiology that i never really learned the first time…
Birthday: got up at 3am (bed at 11pm, so 4 hours sleep) to finish cramming for my endocrine exam at 8am (got another C). walmart (always exciting :o/) for shampoo/conditioner, curling iron, shirt, shorts; then gasoline with birthday money from pa. cvs for pills. took my lonesome self to get sushi on ma’s dime. kroger to pick out my own birthday cake. almost cried in middle of the bakery. home. exhausted. bright spot: loretta brought me a cake, cards, and homemade pasta salad. tried to nap. electric went off, so no tv to put me to sleep. tossed & turned forever, but never got to sleep. ma brought bob evans food for my birthday dinner. another bright spot: jeremy & kaileigh came out & brought me a card & balloon. still no electric. mamaw climbed over her rails & fell out of bed & had to go to the ER (cracked rib). still no electric, so no call from bubby & allie. no pa (at ER), so no cake & ice cream. electric finally back around 10pm, so sleep.
Tuesday: feinberg appt. - back on prednisone, cause i’m all swollen & feel like shit. cried on him for no real reason, so setting up an appt w/ psychiatrist to adjust my crazy pills. arby’s - lunch. jcp - used a birthday bonus from them ($15) to buy some comfy undergarments. (so few bras are made for ladies with wide ribs -36in- & flat chests -A- [thanks, mamaw]…and certainly no pretty ones.) walmart - for neutrogena skincare that they didn’t have. home. missed call from england while i was out. cake & cards with nan, ma, & pa. sleep.
Wednesday: pt. home. shower. england call, finally. sleep.
Thursday: birthday exam review. supposed to have lunch with classmate, but she left before i got there. sushi takeout, because i’m going through another sushi phase. mcd’s sweet t, because it’s big & cheap. home. organize & study for comprehensive final next week. sleep.
Friday: study. plans for later: pt @ 1ish. home. study. todd here!!!
Weekend: study. memorial day cookout @ the duncans. study. study.
Total birthday items (non-money): 3 shirts, 1 pair of shorts, 1 curling iron.
Total cost: $55.
Nanny’s bitching about spending money & bringing more “things” into the house: incessant.
It’s my birthday. And a shitty one. Give me a break.
Since there’s all kinds of “gay” shit on the news and facebook lately, I’ll share with you some stuff from my reproductive physiology notes — after my nap.
And for those who like to argue with biology/genetics/mutations and say, “God doesn’t make mistakes…it’s a choice…blahblahblah…”…I think you’re wrong.
I hate when attendance is required. That means that the 2/3 of the class that never show up…are here. And the room is full. And I freak out. Get nauseous. Hyperventilate. And sit in the lobby. Or bathroom.
Added the stairmaster to my otherwise extremely boring (mostly stretching & strengthening my joints) routine at PT. Today, I’m feeling the burn in my muscles, and I like it. And I actually worked up a sweat!
Busy Friday, so I don’t go back until Monday… Got some stretching toys to use over the weekend, if I can motivate myself.
Been enjoying some good British television, lately. Buuuuut, I find it terribly irritating that I can’t watch more than the first season (series) of anything. Except, Inspector Lewis, which I adore. I’ve been able to watch a lot of that. It’s my new Law & Order. Anyway, Downton Abbey & Sherlock are the most irksome to be unable to watch, especially with their cliffhangers. :o/
Also, watched a fairly recent version of Wuthering Heights, starring Tom Hardy & Andrew Lincoln. Makes me want to re-read the book. Did nothing to stifle my preoccupation with death, though. The scene where Heathcliff digs up Cathy’s grave to hold her skeleton…yeah, I could see myself doing that. When one of the people closest to me dies, I’ll probably crack. Just a warning.
…is having a birthday, today. Happy 2nd! :o)
Also, my uncle Carlin & great-uncle Roger — happy birthday!
Jimmy & Rachel had bdays, last week. Hope they were good, too!
Sometimes, when I’m talking to my babies, it’s like I’m speaking in tongues. I don’t even know what I’m saying. After saying it to Macca 5 or 6 times, I started to wonder, “what does precious booger even mean?”
Been migraine-free for several months. Tuesday, I started seeing big, bright circles in my peripheral vision…so I knew it was coming. Yesterday, the vomits. Today, pulsating pain from the neck up, and sunshine & noise make me want to die.
But f√¢{ing school does not stop. 4 painful hours today, including a small group workshop that I got next-to-nothing out of — because I had to concentrate so hard just to keep from crying. But my body was there, so I got points.
Then I got to go cry for my counselor, again. She asked me to talk about how arthritis has affected my life…crycrycry. And why I think I’m a failure…sniff.
And it did nothing good for my headache.
And we’re out of ice cream.
Goodnight.
This is my haircut, without the bangs. It’s straight, right now. Can’t wait to see what it looks like when I wash it & leave it curly!
I love it!
